「UNTITLED」

いいわけを静かに聞き流してくれたのは…
「夢を見ていたよ 縋り付くだけのキミに」

―ありふれた言葉並べて 隙間を埋めるのは簡単ね
許し合う事に疲れたのは いつまでも変わらぬキミの嘘―

Why do I repeat myself again?

悲しませる「癖」にまた一つ言葉を失くす
その涙の理由さえも何故僕は壊すのだろう?

俯き床をなぞる 交わさぬこの目を見つめ
問いかける声にまだ膝を抱えたままで

―ありふれた言葉並べて 隙間を埋めるのは簡単ね
許し合う事に疲れたのは いつまでも変わらぬキミの嘘―

Why do I repeat myself again?

悲しませる「癖」にまた一つ言葉を失くす
その涙の理由さえも何故僕は壊すのだろう?

いつかの君が言っていた最期が見えた気がして

少しずつ消えてゆく変わらない君の笑みに
少しずつ離れてゆく心に触れた気がした

そう… 悲しみが これ以上聞こえぬように

そっと耳を塞ぐように

壊れてしまわないように

Farewell little Angel

"Yue Yue died of systemic organ failure," a spokesman from the hospital treating her reported, adding that no expense had been spared to try to save the girl.

Fear not little Yue Yue... There are no vans, or heartless sub-humans in Heaven...

也许天使就应该生活在天堂，也许在那个没有冷漠的世界，她会比现在过得幸福快乐吧。她来过这个世界，让我们记住她的名字，她叫王悦。一路走好。

Not a pleasant update...

Today, Su Lei, the director of the Guangzhou Military Hospital's Intensive Care Unit said that Yue Yue could die "at any moment". He said: "I cannot tell how long she has left. We are still trying to save her, but the scenario is getting worse and worse." After consulting with specialists in Beijing, Yue's medical team had concluded that she is now nearly brain-dead. "Other key organs are now deteriorating. Her heart is failing and this morning she is suffering swelling in her lungs and, at 11.43am, her heart stopped beating. We managed to save her after 40 minutes of resuscitation."

Gadhafi is dead

One of the world's longest ruling dictators was shot to death while fleeing Libyan fighters, thus ending his 42-year-rule. "Gadhafi is history," an official said.

An update on Yue Yue

I FINALLY have an update. Yue Yue is still alive according to her father Wang Chichang.

Donations from inside China (not counting what has been given by PROC) total around 40,000USD for Yue Yue's care...

Sadly, that doesn't even begin to cover her already extensive, and growing hospital bills, having spent 7 days in PICU\PCCU, with no release date in sight...

Her father has also released the banking information if anyone outside of China would like to contribute:

中国建设银行广州分行西城支行
Account number: 6227 0033 2952 0342 026
Account name: 王持昌

I have taken the time to enlarge the Account information simply because I am aware that sometimes Chinese characters are hard to discern when written in smaller text sizes, and I don't want money meant for Yue Yue, her care, and her family, to go into a different account.

Cool Nintendo Bag!

You know what the great thing about bags is? They hold stuff. And you have stuff. What a coincidence! But you don't want just any bag. The bag you choose says something about you. The +10 Bag of Groceries? I like this planet; it's where I keep my bananas. The The Bag of Holding Messenger Bag? I have a 10 foot pole, and I'm not afraid to use it. And this one? I'd rather be gaming. You can have my console when you pry it out of my cold, dead hands. The Nintendo Reversible Messenger Bag measures 11" tall x 15" long with a 4" gusset across the bottom. The front panel zips off to be reversible. One side is the classic NES controller; the other side is a pattern made out of tiny controllers. This reversible panel snaps closed with a side release (quick release) buckle to keep your stuff inside. Lifting the panel reveals a pocket, good for files, a composition notebook, and other goodies. The main compartment has a zipper across the top and a tiny zipper pouch inside for memory cards, thumb drives, or Starbucks gift cards. The shoulder strap is adjustable webbing and has a maximum 24" drop. Made from 100% polyester for its durability.

Buy the fucking bag!

The Walking Dead Webisodes!

 

Fans of AMC's zombie hit "The Walking Dead"  may remember "Bicycle Girl," the half-torso walker who seemed to reflect a bit of humanity before Rick Grimes shoots her. It was one of the most powerful scenes of Season 1, and for those who have been curious about the infamous walker, now you'll get to experience her story.

AMC recently released six webisodes exploring Hannah's back story. You'll get to learn about Hannah's life before the apocalypse, her struggle to survive and protect her family as the world begins to fall apart, and her horrible -- and heartbreaking -- demise into a walker.

And for the first time, we'll get to see what life was like at the start of the zombie outbreak.

You can watch them here.

Webisode 1
Webisode 2
Webisode 3
Webisode 4
Webisode 5
Webisode 6

IT: Star Wars

This is fucking hilariously cool lol. This guy has way to much time on his hands.

China...

The great People's Republic of China… an overpopulated country.1.3 BILLION people. How valuable is human life in china? They are a colony of ants. Worker ants are expendable. Certainly, their babies are. They pollute themselves… they kill their female children. They generally look upon non-Chinese as moving obstructions. They gave their own children milk tainted with the melamine, a TOXIC poison and they shipped it internationally. They sold to OUR children toys painted with lead-based paints. An apathetic, egocentric ‘culture’.

Anyone who has viewed the video can see, it was not the initial occurrence (even though it was through inattentive negligence), but the aftermath that is purely inhuman. He ran over Yue Yue again, and fled. Then, people looked down on a tiny, bloody, flailing body and continued to walk or drive on.

This cannot be compared to Kitty Genovese or Hugo Tale-Yax,  or any quasi-similar occurrence in this country. In those cases, it was an adult at risk and bystanders might have assumed some danger to themselves should they have intervened (not that I agree). This was a child… a 2 year old baby that these people allowed to lie alone, critically injured and (God forbid that she was conscious) frightened in the street.

Personally, I believe it’s time for the world at large, who are just as disgusted by this event as I am, to declare economic war on this "ant colony". When you plan on purchasing an item, look to see where it was made. If it was ‘Made in China’ buy an equivalent item made anywhere else.

小悦悦...

Dead or Alive...

It's unknown at this time...

Some of you may be unaware of who Qu (Wang) Yue Yue (Lulu) is, because for reasons unknown to me, the US media, seems to be largely putting her story on the back burner.

On October 13, 2011, at 5:25PM, a beautiful two year old girl, wandered away from her parents who were working in their family owned hardware store... wandering in the street, she was hit by two utility vans, and lay in the street for seven excruciatingly long minutes in which 18 people (One of them, a mother of a five-year-old girl, said she felt "regretful, compassionate, painful at heart and guilty, I truly thought she had fallen down from playing and didn't know she was run over by vehicles until her mother came in tears. She was bleeding from the mouth and nose and crying faintly. I was scared and my daughter was scared to cry. So we left in a hurry. I wanted to lift her, but there was so much blood. I was scared. If someone was helping at that time, I would have done the same.") walking and driving by decide not to help her. A street scavenger named Chen Xianmei finally came upon her and gently moved her out of harms way despite harsh words from street vendors telling her to mind her own business, it was soon after that Feifei runs up and collects Yue Yue, she was then transported to the hospital.

Just to warn you, the video is extremely graphic... if you decide to click the "play" button, don't fill my comment box with comments about how horrific it is, because I am warning you now. It is horrific, so click at your own risk.

I was in brief contact with Qu Feifei, (Yue Yue's mother) via Sina Weibo (China's solution to Twitter), but my Sina Weibo has been suspended as has my Weibo email account, and I've gotten some really nice emails from PROC, asking me to cease contact with the Qu's (Wang's). Sadly, now Feifei won't return any of my emails either.

This is a clear sign of PROC censorship at work.

Conflicting reports about Yue Yue support the idea that censorship of Yue Yue’s story has already begun.

There are the conflicting reports on China Daily and Xinhua, two agencies controlled by the government, about whether or not YueYue is still alive. When I last heard from Feifei, she was, but things could have very well changed since that time.

There is also China Daily’s story, in which it was reported the drivers who hit Yue Yue had not seen her on the road, and were sorry for their mistake. The Shanghaiist blog, reported a totally different story the same day, writing that one of the drivers had admitted to trying to escape before anyone saw him and attempted to bribe Yue Yue’s father to stay quiet. The Shanghaiist story is the same story I was given by the Qu (Wang) family.

China Daily also reported that the many passersby hadn’t noticed Yue Yue lying on the street, while the video makes it very clear at least some of them did.

I hope she is still alive. I hope that Feifei contacts me.

I have not stopped.

Between fighting with computer issues, and dealing with other issues at home, I haven't really had a lot of time to blog lately. Things have stabilized a bit, so I have a few things to post... okay, more than a few things.

As I have time tomorrow, I will get everything posted.

Finally... A Diablo III Release Date

My sources at Blizzard have confirmed to me that the release date is indeed set for February 07, 2012!

I am SUPER EXCITED to see this released finally, as we have been waiting for a very long time!

Steve Jobs has gone to the iCloud in the sky

Steve Jobs, the visionary in the black turtleneck who co-founded Apple  in a Silicon Valley garage, built it into the world's leading tech company and led a mobile-computing revolution with wildly popular devices such as the iPhone, died Wednesday. He was 56.

The hard-driving executive pioneered the concept of the personal computer and of navigating them by clicking onscreen images with a mouse. In more recent years, he introduced the iPod portable music player, the iPhone and the iPad tablet -- all of which changed how we consume content in the digital age.

Alcohol + Celebs often = Death

This is a math equation that I can't seem to wrap my head around... I blogged about this a little while after starting this new blog...

Jani Lane, lead singer of Warrant died a couple of months back and the  L.A. Coroner's Office has finished its investigation determining that Lane suffered from "acute ethanol poisoning".

Lane was found dead on August 11  in a Woodland Hills area Comfort Inn. Alcohol and prescription drugs were found in his motel room.

He was 47.

*goes to Youtube to listen to Cherry Pie*

Several Things...

Went to Rabun Camp grounds this weekend, mostly because I didn't want to be left alone for 4 days...

It was so cold... I hated that aspect of it. Most who know me, know that I don't deal well with cold temperatures at all. 37° temperatures at while trying to sleep is not my idea of fun at all.

Midget had a blast, however. She loved being outdoors. Collecting firewood, going for walks. Sunday we went to Helen, rode on a horse drawn carriage, and we bought her a life-size (well Midget size anyway) Simba. Monday we went to Tallulah Falls. She was in awe of the water, and the suspension bridge.

Fast forward to Tuesday morning...

Noon: I tell Linda, "Watch her, I have to finish packing up so that we can leave." (Trent had to be at work at 5:30, and it was a 2 hour or more drive back)

1:30pm: I finish loading the car, and the only thing left to do is deconstruct the tent equipment. She comes over to help, leaving Midget in the camper. I put the last of the rods and stakes in the tent bag and walk over to the camper, Midget is standing in the doorway, with this disgusted look on her face and white particles on her lips and chin. Curious, I wipe them off. Instantly I know, they are parts of a pill... or what's left of a pill. I gave her to Linda, screaming. I went into the camper to find that she had gotten into Linda's UNLOCKED, RIGHT OUT IN THE OPEN, pill box... 2 pills were missing. 1 Metformin (a diabetes drug) 500mg pill (the white particles I swept away were what was left of that pill), and 1 Simvastatin (a cholesterol drug) 20mg pill (of which we never found). Chaos is the best word I can describe the next 40 minutes. Linda cramming salt water down Midget's throat... thinking it would make her vomit, me screaming at her to stop, James scrambling for cell phone signal... Finally a moment of clarity comes and I run to the pay phone at the top of camp, getting to the phone I dialed 911, there were two gentleman unpacking their SUV, getting ready for a day of bear hunting. Needless to say I am screaming, I am crying and I am largely hysterical... Yelling at the 911 operator, I didn't know how to instruct them to get to us... I was losing what little composure I had left, when the man took the phone from me and instructed the 911 operator how to get to us, turns out that man, whom I only know by Michael, was a doctor, he rushed back to our camp and immediately took over, trying to keep Midget awake until the paramedics arrived...

Michael I will forever be in your debt for helping us... Though we will most probably never see each other again. Thank you so much...

2:30pm: We are on our way to the hospital. The paramedics largely didn't know what to do. They wanted to call Poison Control, but they too, had no cell signal.

2:48pm: 3 minutes away from the hospital, Josiah, the paramedic, gets through to the Poison Control. They tell us there's nothing to worry about. That the Simvastatin would cause an upset stomach, and that the Metformin was harmless under 1700mg. We then pull over into the supermarket parking lot, and offload a very scared, sleepy Midget, and start the drive home.

3:30pm: We are at the Dairy Queen eating swiftly to get back on the road so that Trent can get to work, when Midget starts projectile vomiting ALL OVER ME!

4:19pm: We are back on the road after cleaning Midget and myself up.

We got home just as Trent was supposed to clock in for work. Calling his work he explained what had happened and left for work.

The rest of the night was uneventful...
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Wednesday:

My legs are KILLING ME from that run up to the phone... it hurts with every step... my legs didn't like the marathon speeds... Midget is feeling okay, she is watching Lion King with Simba.

I am listening to the GazettE's new album TOXIC... I am disappointed, only liking one song, and seeing 5 of the 14 songs are from singles released over a year ago, and 2 instrumentals... this feels like an even more shitty version of DIM...

I am also sitting here reading about a German man having been deported at the ripe age of 96 for "war crimes", having been an SS guard at Sobibor in World War II. Having been charged with 200,000 counts of "accessory to murder". I find this to be absolutely absurd... he was a guard, doing his job in war time... he would have been charged with treason and executed if he didn't follow orders. Instead he survived only to be charged 50+ years later... give me a break...

Why aren't we charging the pilots of the Enola Gay for 200,000 deaths, after all they were only doing their jobs as well.

How about the American pilots of Vietnam and Korea shooting random civilians for kicks... why aren't we tracking them down and charging them with "war crimes" as well...

I am disgusted with how we have given the Jews and Israel carte blanche in prosecuting "Nazis"... It's over...

Seriously Alabama... unconstitutional immigration laws... I think Obama said it best.

"We need to put a stop to this, what Alabama is doing, what Arizona tried to do, and other states who are attempting to follow, it's out of control. We can't have a patchwork of 50 states with 50 different immigration laws. We can't have a situation in which individual counties are trying to enforce their own immigration laws rather than having a national approach and following it."

One last thing... Pastor Joel Osteen needs an education... 90% of America's are NOT Evangelical Christians.

Anyway, I think I am going to spend some time with Midget, rest my throbbing legs, and sort ebooks...